Monday, May 9, 2011

Mother's Day

I hope all of you moms out there had a wonderful Mother's Day! My mom is in Cabo lying on white sandy beaches, soaking up some sun... I think that sounds like an okay way to spend Mother's Day, especially when you're an Oregonian. :)

We've been out of town a lot lately, and Josh ended up traveling 3 weeks in the month of April for work, fitting it around celebrating the kids' birthdays, plus all five of us had doctor check-ups in the past 3 weeks, so I asked if we could just lay low this weekend. It was just what I needed! I'm so glad to be getting back to our regular weekly routine now.

So, if you know my husband, he likes, no loves, to bake. This hobby has really come to life over the past year. I've never been much of a cookie, cake, or chocolate person, though. (I love fruity things!) But I think Josh has slowly been wooing me to the dark side. :) Since our family went gluten-free, dairy-free over a year ago, Josh has been quite impressively making desserts that I love. He takes a regular recipe and tweaks it with g-free ingredients like almonds and oats and cashew milk, etc. and makes these great desserts that taste completely normal. (I don't care for g-free products that use ingredients like garbanzo bean flour, tapioca, or xanthan gum. They just taste too strange to me.) So this weekend Josh took a regular cake recipe and created a really moist, incredible g-free, dairy-free, chocolate-cheesecake-brownie-cake! I was amazed. Really amazed. Thank you, Love!

He and the kids also got me peonies, my favorite flower, and made me a card that was so sweet.

(that's a picture of me from when I was a little girl on the front)

This weekend I also made a few more hair clippies for Selah. :) I wanted to try making these little felt flowers, which turned out to be super easy to make... thank you youtube. (If you want to make them just google "felt flower headband")

I found myself crying in Josh's arms last night. I'm soooo thankful for my amazing husband. He listens so compassionately and is always supportive and helps me process through the things I'm thinking. I was crying over wanting to be a better mom. I know that might sound silly, or if you are like me then it makes sense. :) I sometimes agonize over the job, because I really want to do my absolute best. I want to be the best example to my kids. I want the fruits of the Spirit to really be the foundation of my parenting. I want to be a great teacher, even though "teaching things" isn't necessarily one of my greatest strengths.

Raising kids isn't easy. When you're tired, your fuse is shorter. When the house is messy then one more mess makes you think you're going to pull out your hair. :) But God's grace and God's Word, I can cling to. He is strong. One day recently, as I was reading through the book of Daniel, I had to laugh at this verse, because I felt like it completely fit my life that day... Daniel 4:34, "I... raised my eyes toward heaven, and my sanity was restored." :)

I read encouraging words from other (blogs) moms this weekend about this subject too that made me realize I'm not alone in my thinking, but just like every other mom out there. We love our children deeply, and want to do our best! One mom shared this sweet verse:

… he gently leads those that have young… Isaiah 40:11

I'm so glad He does! I love you Jude, Selah & Benjamin and I'm so blessed to be your mom!


Lisa said...

Miss B- the smile on those sweet sweet faces shows just how great of a Mom you are!! Can't wait for a Summer date :-)

Jessica Jordan said...

Heart. Heart.

I just finished my mother's day post so my heart is weepy ... what great verses; thanks B. I can SO SO SO relate about just always wanting to be a better mom. Especially as a working mom as you are, I constantly feel torn ... an I am also a perfectionist (shocking, I know). Anyhow, I can relate :) Happy Mother's Day to an amazing mom and great friend.

Oh and um ... can I have some cake :)

Leticia said...

You are an AWESOME mom, Bethany. I have no doubt! But, I sure can relate to the struggles. Thanks for sharing. Gorgeous pictures, as always!!

Janine the Bean said...

Grace. Grace. And more grace to you.

I wish we could hang out. Maybe when you're in Corvallis, we'll be able to do that some time.

Love you like a are one, right?


Anonymous said...

ahh Bethany :) such a sweet post.
Go Josh, what a great hubby and mothers day gift. You are an awesome mom Bethany! Can't believe how big and adorable your kiddos are.
I really think that through our imperfections are kids learn we need God's Help and His forgiveness.
I can't even count how many times I have had to ask my kids for forgiveness.
I totally understand though.
Grace Based Parenting is an awesome book.

I also recently read this post and was sooo encouraged.

“It’s not that you aren’t going to blow it. It’s what you do with it afterwards.”

Sorry for the long comment. We need to get together and catch up.
A big hug to you. Danya